Sunday, September 21, 2008

its been a long time...

alright so since my last blog, a lot has changed...well not a lot but somethings have changed. I no longer have a girlfriend and I'm learning things about myself that i've either forgot about or just haven't thought about in a long time.

Broke up with adie two weeks ago. its been the longest two weeks of my life, but i think i am finally pulling through. i've allowed myself time to be sad and dwell on the loss and what not, which is healthy, but it's time to move on. A part of me wants to see things work out in the short term and get things back on track with her...but its just out of my hands. She broke up with me...therefore she has the power to take me back, but ultimately its up to God. Right now where I am at, I have just put my trust in God and pray that he brings me to the next positive thing for my life. Its really all that I can do as I continue to grow, and now without adie.

Anyway, i'm looking forward to the next chapter in my life, which for right now i think i will name "post college, pre-rest of my life andrew" lol pretty cheesy but thats how i'm feeling.

Its been a pretty chill weekend outside of friday night... Friday night was so much fun for a while then things turned for the worst. Went out with brady, mark, andy, and juan to do some skateboarding at the U. I messed up and forgot i had taken my board out of my car, so i didnt have anything to skate..but that was cool, just fun cruising around with the homies anyway. The whole day i was contemplating whether i was going to drink or not and since it had been almost a month since the last time i really got drunk i decided to have some liquor that night. That seemed like the right choice for the time being.

We pre-gamed a little at Juan and Brady's house, shotgunned a couple beers and pulled on our bottle of vodka. Then we started getting antsy so we started making the calls for the night to see what was going on. Found out a friend, Carolyn, was at a party in dinkytown and wanted us all to come. So we made the trek out to this party and it was a good time. Met some people, hung out on the front stoop, and had drank some more. Needless to say this Carolyn girl is foxy as hail and was looking pretty hot that night, but thats beside the point.

So we're hanging out and the party starts slowing down a little so juan calls up claire and katie and rachel and that whole crew so we can go to drew, jake, isaac, and joe's house for a kegger. We had a bunch of dudes in our crew so we figured the least we could do is bring a few ladies along. So we walk to this kegger and it was a nice little hike, the girls are anxious because a few of them aren't drunk yet and its like 12:30 so they were in a rush to get there. Anyway, we roll in and theres still plenty of keg beer and everything left. I walk in the kitchen and get prompted to do a keg stand. Did a keg stand and was up for like 17 seconds or something. it was awesome. So the party is bumpin, we're listening to some tribe called quest and other various hip-hop having a good time kickin it. Andy was mark and I's designated driver so i tell andy we can head out whenever he wants. So the keg runs dry and we decided to head out. this is about 1:45 or so in the morning. So me mark and andy are walking back to my car parked at brady's house. we're walking, just bullshitting and messing around. i'm pretty freakin drunk at this point, but this is what i remember, maybe someone can enlighten me, but a car full of drunk college boys pulls up and mark and i are talking shit for some reason and they talk shit back...they drive off and mark throws a bottle at the car. they pull over and decide to get out of the car to fight whoever threw the bottle. I tell mark we need to keep walking cus its 5 dudes on 3 and we have no chance on account of how belig we were.

anyway, mark runs his mouth and gets pushed. Funniest thing that I remember is Mark trying to like karate kick this kid and his kick just gets denied. a guy grabbed marks leg and just threw him down. lol but yea...we got our asses kicked. I got wrestled to the ground somehow and got my face smashed on the concrete. my lip is pretty cut up and i think my nose is broken, but i dont have medical insurance so i can't even afford to get an x-ray. So this was the ending to our night...

moral of the story, shouldn't have drank that night. Sobriety is probably still a good thing for me. So i laid low last night and just stayed in and watched a movie with my dad and christine.

Crazy old grandma neumiller is staying with us and has been here for a week. Getting old is scary. My grandma is either starting to get very senial or is just not very smart or something, cus she just rambles on about random stuff from her whole life. we could be talking about politics and she would bring up like some burglary that happened at her small towns grocery store like 18 years ago. it makes me not want to get old and is kinda sketchy.

still thinking about traveling. need to go see my buddy peter in korea sometime. I think teaching english somewhere in asia would be sweet. Korea would be my first choice, just so I could go to an unfamiliar place, but have a familiar friend be there with me. Otherwise my birth mom, kristi, has been talking to me about going to Japan. She use to live there and teach english. She was telling me the money is better in Japan, but the cost of living is also higher in Japan than korea. I think either would be a great opportunity for me. It would be a way to get away from minneapolis for a while and just take some time for myself. I love all my friends and family to pieces but theres only so much of one place that you can take for so long.

But its like 1:15 in the morning i need to go to bed. I've got work tomorrow, not til 11 but i work the double shift, so some sleep would probably be beneficial. PEACE AND LOVE!

2 comments:

M.D.E. said...

The next positive thing in life shall come soon buddy.

"They say ev'rything can be replaced,
Yet ev'ry distance is not near.
So I remember ev'ry face
Of ev'ry man who put me here.
I see my light come shining
From the west unto the east.
Any day now, any day now,
I shall be released.

They say ev'ry man needs protection,
They say ev'ry man must fall.
Yet I swear I see my reflection
Some place so high above this wall.
I see my light come shining
From the west unto the east.
Any day now, any day now,
I shall be released.

Standing next to me in this lonely crowd,
Is a man who swears he's not to blame.
All day long I hear him shout so loud,
Crying out that he was framed.
I see my light come shining
From the west unto the east.
Any day now, any day now,
I shall be released."
- Bob Dylan

That right there is my favorite Bob Dylan song. The first time I heard it though was when my cousin gave me a Jerry Garcia Band show. I can't for sure remember, but I might have given it to you on your bday. I have looked at the true meanings of it on forums and discussions for the past few months. It can be looked at in multiple ways. Some say that it is an anti-death penalty song, which I could see in the third verse. And some say that it is a song of optimism that shows the idea of waiting on a light to come down and shine on you to escape how your life is right now. I see it the second way mostly because of how this song always brings me up so much when I hear it.

Whether you have heard this song before or not, I'm sure reading these lyrics could somewhat be joyful for you. Anyway though, it was really good talking to you last night and we will keep staying in touch. Peace and Love

peter said...

dude your post crazy night butt whoppings get me going omg! and laughing my butt off at the same time...i'm so sorry bro, and mark what a dumby, but honesty I thought his karate kick would be legit...turns out not. whats his mom think? scared like fresh prines mom yo. anyways I am really encouraged, just in what you wrote its life changing. the feelings you are experiecing man, on another side of the spectrum, I was once told if your comfortable, your not growing. man thats good to hear and read. but word man, i dig that moral of the story man, and to see your trust in God, thats encouraging as well. and if we meet up in europe, thats super dope, and if you can come to korea, or even japan I'll be seeing you way more, and i'll be home briefly in january so we'll have to kick it. any words on how long I should come home for? i want to be packing the house and my things, seeing my friends, hit up duluth to snowboard once, and then just yeah chill with my friends. but I dont want to be a bum either. thinking a week and a half, let me know if thats to short in your opinion. that was tangent but I always end up writing on your comment wall. anyways its good reading and i'm glad you got this blog yo. later